First Trip to India!

My first trip to India was one of unknown excitement sad joy anxious afraid brave...so many mix emotions. Here I was on a plane...alone the first time in my life...going to a place I have only heard of and meeting  people I don't really know.....Scary!!!!!!

My heart was beating so fast when I boarded that plane...I kept talking to God silently. Oh my, many bad things came into my mind.What if the plane crash.What if it falls in to the ocean....I try to breath and be normal.Oh when it took flight my heart almost when to stand still....Goddddddddddd.....Phew it was over soon though..Wow never knew it can be so quiet in the air...Lol.

I was slowly getting relaxed. Wow 15 hours seems like forever...and that is only to Dubai. From there I will have to fly another 3 H 30 hours...I prayed much...Well time was moving fast and slow (not really sure)...food was good and the entertainment on your screen...I loved it. Somehow a fire was burning inside and as much as I wanted to suppress it with taking walks, listening music, praying....it didn't seem to cease. The fire called anxiety have fully HIT me now.....two hours before getting to Dubai..the worse anxiety attack known...Boom..I couldn't breath..I had to get out of there...i was calling the hostess,I need some air....my heart rate is now about 130 pulse per minute my hands and feet feels frozen..I cant speak properly My head is spinning...I am gonna loose consciousness ..I feel like I am gonna have a heart attack...oh God how come You brought me here to die...what is this? I prayed. They made me to sit in the hostess cabin (everyone now looking at me funny) with them.They offered me cool drink , coffee snacks, books to read...I was not calming down at all...I  wanted to get away from all these people which I don't know ...trapped with strangers who doesn't understand what I am feeling...Lord I am dying. Why did You do this? Why didn't I stay home with my family and friends?Why didn't I  listen to the doctor, who told me not to go to India? Why? Why? Why?!!!!!! Did I mistake Satan's voice and prophesy for God's voice? I now rush  into the small toilet ....I sit there..I cry to God...I say don't let me die...please give me another chance...What did I do wrong this time? Why are you punishing me like this...God I need You please. Calm me please...I washed my face. 

Somehow I am feeling a little bit better. My breathing gets normal. I go back to the hostess cabin. I sit there for a while...now I am starting to feel very cold...my teeth clapping on each other...They bring a blanket as I continue to pray. I am slowly getting my breathing back and I am not dizzy anymore and my heart rate is slowing down. As I am sitting there covered under blanket, I started to softly praising God...more and more and more...They keep on checking if I am OK. By now I am completely relaxed ...praise God! I am going back to my seat. I came to know once again its the Work of the enemy! He told me so many  lies and I believed it...How dare I not trust God!! When we don't trust God we will suffer....Now there is about 30 minutes left before I get to Dubai. ..and I am feeling better and relaxed. Thank God!...I made it. God helped me....but already I am thinking negative about my flight from Dubai to India....I rebuked that enemy just there in the plane ..on the way to Dubai...he never bothered me again.

 I spent almost 8 hours on Dubai airport that day...Alone... don't speak the language...dont know where I am heading...but God was with me He knew... He send people to help me and direct me in all the things. I am able to connect with  Pastor Raj and the other Pastor by phone from a phone booth, cause now my phone network was disconnected. I ask both of them  for more prayer....All went smooth when I boarded the next flight from Dubai to India...I landed on Hyderabad airport..everything is fine...my next challenge. ..what if the pastor that I have to meet doesn't come or what if he is not really a Pastor? Well, God I am here...and I trust You Will protect me...and provide me the wisdom and the peace that I need....I feel another panic coming up (Lol...I rebuke you Satan) ...I finally met the Pastor (whom was standing with my name board in his hands..hahha...I only see that on TV). He is also not what I imagine he would be like but he look like the man on the picture.... Hahha..God is good!

I feel a little bit uncomfortable and I think he as well. Somehow we get some coffee and he says now we will have to take a bus and travel for 18 hours. I can't manage to drink my coffee. I have a lump in my throat. When  we came out from the air port a heat wave hit me like I have never experienced ...phew...its so hot here...we took a taxi into the city where we will catch a bus...oh Lord, its so hot and the air is not nice smelling at all...and there is so much darkness from where we have to catch the bus.Why, so many people are in the streets.What is happening here and its dark also...I dont know A from Z...what if this man rob me and kill me? Enemy kept on talking. Finally we are in the bus now and on our way...I feel a little bit comfort now...since there are  many people in the bus. The bus is not as bad as other vehicles I have seen on the streets.We began our 18 hours journey. At first I couldn't get any sleep, was looking through the window most of the time.The little  glimpses that I get from looking through  the window seems like a horror movie. People everywhere. Dirty streets. Air pollution and so much noise from the traffic. People lying sleeping or dead in dark corners...I dont know for sure. Also dont want to ask to many questions yet. In the deep night I fell asleep. Now, each one received a blanket.Wow, I didn't think this blanket was washed for ages...what if there is creepy crawlers in that can bite me..anyway....its getting cool now in the bus...and thank God it is an Ac bus.....so am enduring and falling asleep through it all...Praying and sleeping....my Mission has begun!We have reached our destination..and I was gladly welcomed by the pastors family and other believers....      

                                  

Welcome to India!
My first trip to India pictures (click on this link)

How a life can suddenly change...when Gods plans fall into action!

At times i am still shocked...still cant believe where I landed up in life...one moment I was loving my job in the office as a loan consultant the next moment I am on my way to India ...with a plane....which I never thought it can be possible...Well ever since I was small I always loved Indian people and their culture and wished to one day marry a very rich Maharaja....Lol.
How marvelous is the plans that God has for us....our thoughts are not His thoughts and our ways definitely not His ways...
I have a ordinary life and everything in life goes smooth at this point in time......nothing extreme..nothing exciting...just a normal life...house ,family, friends, job and church...
Somehow I was searching for something more....inside of me...I wasn't  just an ordinary person...I feel I need to do more with my life....there is a lingering for something...and it links to God...
What was it!Now after wasting many years in the world...being as lost as can be...i found God...I was happy and had a nice little home and enjoyed my job am able to buy nice things for home and me..I love shopping...I go to church and I love God with all my heart...I am always connected to Him in Spirit...Praying, Praising, Worshiping....Why I still feel some emptiness(This emptiness has been going on for a few years now)...I have lost many precious years in the world...did a lot for Satan,Thank God for saving me...I was a wretch ...now I have found Jesus!How merciful He was to me.To save an  old rag like me...How can I ever repay Him...How many times has He physically saved my life too...after many promises and many failures...He never gave up on me...Thank You for saving me that precious morning Jesus...I wanted to repay Him for all He has done for me...Now i felt to become something for God....
The more this urge pressed on me..the more I become unhappy with my life...unsatisfied...my home family possessions job is not filling the gap....The temptation is also there to go back to my old life but Grace kept me...
One draggy  morning as I was on my way to work...I  handed a pamphlet over to a security guard concerning the loan business...he accepted and we started talking...i was telling him how unhappy I am ..that my job and everything is not pleasing me.He asked if he can pray...then what I felt is true(I instantly felt connected to him)..this man is a son of God...A prophet/evangelist i would find out later.He prayed and I felt better ...before I said goodbye ,he said :"One more thing sister!"....I said ,yes bro?...."God said you will travel all over the  world to spread the good news...I laughed and asked  really???He said yes...with that we left each other ....That"s was in April 2010...I never took him serious...He is maybe a "prophet in training"...I thought...never saw him again...
Life went on as normal,still i am craving and seeking...not getting any fulfillment...
I met some people on internet .....that's was now the only excitement in my life....
Talking getting encouragement prayer and  fellowship online...I love my internet friends...where were they all my life...Hah ha...
In October of 2010 I  met yet another prophet this time online...He said "do you know that you are going to India soon"....Lol.was my reply....this must be the biggest joke I heard in a long time...Me???????? No way!!!
To do what?To preach the gospel in India!!!!!!!!!Bwahahahahaa..I am just a normal believer....I cant even talk properly ...what about preaching...never even brought one souls to Christ...never evangelized to any one but to the two women in my office,and that's also very lightly...I am no speaker or preacher(the excuses of Moses). I also never have been overseas...And I don't even know any people there very closely.Well except for a few Facebook friends...But I don't know them personally an close enough......
He said well get ready...
I thought about what he said...but it didn't stick to me....I am ordinary,nothing special....
Few weeks after that I talked to my then Pastor friend(Raj) and one other Pastor...who both invited me to India...I am shock...Wow so the prophecies was real...I knew it then...that this was the conformation.I applied my passport at that end of October.And I got it in miracle time....what normally takes 8 weeks became 3 weeks....now I believe God is behind this...Still  I have some struggle...a big one ..ticket money....and some money for hotel and other expenses....
It was done...God provided...and I was off to India.You  don't know the people there personally!This is crazy,to fly alone(woman alone)to a place where you have never been and meeting strangers...they could be killers!This is the response of my family and friends....
I prayed much and asked God...and it felt right.There was no negative feelings....My visa now also was approved and I am excited to go to India...Wow who would have thought...that I will ever go overseas..and  for what?To preach the Gospel...how awesome is God!
Three days before leaving South Africa...I fell very sick....I suddenly have developed vertigo

(A confused, disoriented state of mind,a sensation of dizziness or abnormal motion resulting from a disorder of the sense of balance)

...and I am unable to keep my head up....The whole world is turning and I cant keep up my head.........oh Lord what is happening to me...What is this illness???Doctor say this is the worse form of vertigo...and normal medicine doesn't work.He needs to make a special mixture and then inject me along with some very very expensive tablets...This is also not helping...Doctor now is saying:"I will give you a letter and then you can claim your ticket money to be returned from Emirates.Since you wont be able to go to India...its impossible...Even if you do feel a little bit better the pressure your ears will experience in the plane..will damage your ear drums...and you will become completely deaf....
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I have to go..I want to...i need too....I will go.It was Gods prophesy against the doctor...And I knew Who would win.I informed Pastor Raj and the other Pastor to please pray for me...since it seems i cant make it(well according to physical evidence)...but deep inside of me...I was not gonna give up on this...I prayed and prayed and prayed....God healed me the same morning of my departure...Praise God....My bags was packed in  faith and everything was ready...Wow after 3 days I am able to keep my head up straight again and no more dizziness...I knew God will heal me,and I am more convince that it is the will of God....How marvelous is our God..How majestic is His ways.Later as I was looking back on it,I came to know that this was the enemy trying to stop me....Well he lost cause nothing can stop Gods plans and will for our life's!Praise God...I was on my way to India!Hallelujah!!!!!!!!Very nervous but trusting God!